Blog 7 : Lessons in Acceptance & Stillness

The Weight of Unresolved Feelings

I’m finding it harder to run away from my feelings of deep sadness and hopelessness. There’s an unsettling stillness in accepting that some things cannot be numbed forever. I’ve been slipping back into my old vices—not because I want to, but because they offer me a moment of release. A moment where my muscles relax, my mind expands, and my creativity flows.

But I see it for what it is now: a temporary bandaid.

Money, success, assets—none of it erases the emotional unpacking that I’ve yet to confront. Still, there’s something cathartic about putting my thoughts into words. This space, these reflections, they help. Because acknowledging the problem is the first step.

Revisiting the Things I Love

Beyond the heaviness, this week reminded me of the simple joys that bring me peace.

✨ Time alone, undisturbed.
✨ A good series that pulls me in.
✨ Snacks. Loads of them.
✨ Reliable WiFi, because obviously.

Most importantly? Silence. The kind that isn’t lonely but restorative. The kind that lets me be fully present with me.

Love, Dating & Letting Go of the Timeline

For once, I’m less anxious about love.

(Quick tea: Dating for me has always been filled with rejection, unrequited love, and limerence. Let me explain:)

  • Rejection: The heartbreak of realizing someone you admire does not feel the same.
  • Unrequited love: Loving someone deeply while knowing they’ll never love you back in the same way.
  • Limerence: That intense infatuation, the fantasy of a person who may not even truly see you.

My 30s feel final. Like a reminder that I missed out on love in my 20s, so this decade must be my marriage and family era. But honestly? I’ve made peace with the unknown.

Yes, I desire love, service, and companionship, but I no longer feel desperate for it. I’m learning to appreciate my singleness—to see it not as a waiting room for marriage but as a sacred space where I define my values, nurture my character, and embrace my eccentricities.

As Proverbs 19:21 says:
"Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails."

So I will do my part and let God handle the rest.

Lessons for the Week: Clarity & Execution

This week’s lesson? Set clear goals.

  • For your business.
  • For your personal growth.
  • For the vision you hold for yourself.

And this time? Let’s implement.

Because we know what needs to be done. Now, it’s time to do it.

Regards  
Lover girl 

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