Blog 21: Choosing Peace, Not Performance

This week, I’ve been noticeably quiet on social media. I didn’t feel the need to post, to show up online, or to prove that I’m still working toward something. I’ve simply needed silence—a moment to step back and reflect on what truly matters. And in that stillness, I’ve found something I haven’t felt in a long time: peace.

For the first time in a long time, I feel more at ease with my decisions than I ever did during the intense grind of the last five years. Those years were filled with hustle, ideas, pushing, pulling, overthinking, trying—and sometimes failing—to make everything happen all at once. It’s been exhausting, and the pressure I placed on myself was constant and loud.


But this week? My mind feels lighter. My chest isn’t tight with anxiety. There’s a softness in how I speak to myself. I no longer feel like I’m behind, racing, or missing out. I’ve accepted that change is okay. Redirection is divine. Starting over is still progress. And this new direction I’m choosing feels right for where I am now—not where I thought I had to be by now.

This doesn’t mean I’ve given up on my goals, or that I’m no longer ambitious. Quite the opposite. It means I’m choosing alignment over urgency. I’m choosing inner clarity over outer noise. I’m learning to walk with purpose rather than sprint out of fear.

I don't feel the need to explain myself as much anymore, either. Those who understand will understand. Those who don’t—well, it’s not my assignment to convince them. What matters is that I understand me. I trust what I’m feeling, and I trust the process God is leading me through.

There’s still uncertainty. But there’s also grace. Grace for the process. Grace for my past. Grace for all the ways I’m evolving. The last five years weren’t wasted. They were necessary for this peace I now hold. They taught me resilience, discipline, patience, and clarity. And now, I can finally rest—mentally, emotionally, and spiritually—in the truth that I don’t have to perform my progress for it to be real.

Glory be to God for the peace, for the clarity, and for this new beginning I didn’t even know I needed. 


Amen 

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