Blog 4: The Softness I Seek

The End of a Chapter This week has been both somber and light. I am closing a chapter that has occupied six months of my life, and while relief washes over me, an unexpected sadness lingers. I am grateful for the journey, but now, I must reclaim my time. Physically, my body reminds me that I have neglected it. Some days it’s my eyes, other days my teeth ache, or my legs feel like they are carrying years of exhaustion. I don’t trust clinics, so I know I need to save for a proper doctor’s visit—one that will see me as a whole person, not just another name on a chart. Despite the aches, I remain grateful. My body, though tired, has carried me through, and for that, I honor it. Survival vs. Thriving Lately, I’ve caught myself contemplating settling. Settling for familiarity, for comfort, for a man I’ve known for years. He offers safety, predictability, companionship—but not expansion. And that’s unsettling for me. I don’t want to simply survive anymore. I want to thrive. I want a life t...